Hello 40

I just made it to the top of the hill. I still feel like I’m in my 20’s, what gives?  Where is this wisdom and maturity that I’m supposed to have now?  Heh, i guess that’s over-rated, or maybe I get that when I’m 50?

Well, I’ve lived in Arizona for most of my life now. Yay for me, keep that cold weather outta my sunshine. I married my teen sweetheart, and she’s still stuck with me. I have two adult children now. WooT!

Is aging supposed to be a drag?  I really enjoy growing older, and here is my secret.  Come closer.

Ok, find people younger than yourself, and share with them what you have learned along the way.  Yep, that’s it.  I absolutely love being a mentor.  Always secretly desiring a mentor to come into my life and give me advice and share things, but alas. No men stepped up to that task in my life until Jesus came into my life in my early 20’s.  Sorry earthly dad’s, you guys didn’t do your job. I learned about abuse, alcoholism, abandonment and pornography from you. You’re fired, but forgiven.

So anyway, I have been blessed with a group of guys that I can pour my life into, as well as the teens in our Youth group at church. More importantly, I am there for my kids.  I guess you’ve stumbled into the ‘pat-myself-on-the-back’ portion of this blog, naw, you haven’t. I suck at plenty of things actually.  Errare humanum est.

I am still not mechanically inclined. I have had numerous cars over the years, but that skill set is not mine. I have given up trying to be automotive too.  I tried loving sports. Honest.  America, I have a news flash for you.  Sporting events are a colossal waste of time and energy. Sure, they are fun. I like an occasional football game. I tolerate the sports fan, but our worship of sports stars is just silly. Most are like spoiled, over-grown kids with too much money.  That’s entertainment!

My desires have changed over the years as well. I used to want a big library and movie collection. I used to want to make lots of money and be famous.  Now, after going thru a few months of spiritual sharpening, I no longer desire to make my kingdom here on earth, but in the kingdom to come.  Life isn’t about acquiring stuff, or gathering other peoples attention.

Thanks to A&E, I got turned on to one show, which then lead me to the show ‘Hoarders’. God in his grace helped me realize that hoarding is in my gene pool, and I have thrown tons of stuff away, and recently started to get rid of stuff on eBay. 

I look forward to the next 40 years now that I can be free of so many things. I feel light, a great crushing burden taken from me.  You may not get it, maybe think that I am crazy?  That’s ok. I don’t live for your approval. 

On to the art for the day.

Doodle of microbes battling it out under low-light and low-atmospheric conditions. Markers and colored pens.

~ by Brien on October 22, 2009.